In Blackest Night – Weight A Minute

It took some doing but I finally put a new set of batteries in the scales the other day and accepted the fact I needed to check on my suspicions.  I’m the heaviest I have ever been in my life – my mood/frame of mind/meds have piled the pounds on and I need to turn that on its head.  I can’t go on struggling to put my shoes on and tie the laces.  I can’t go on struggling to fit into clothes I once loved and now I cannot stand to look at.

My diet consisted of eating whatever was quickest/easiest.  I would go long periods without eating and then stuff my face.  My diet became a blast from the past – this way of life was mine a few years ago before I had a health kick and lost quite a bit and looked half-decent.  The mental side of things is clearly fuelled by the physical and vice versa.

Today, I partook in a spot of cooking.  I made a batch of courgette soup and had a huge bowl of stir-fry (syn free, I might add).  I feel pretty good, in the grand scheme of things.  Aside from feeling hungry and craving sugary goodness anyway.  I’ve not been on Slimming World before – last time around I just calorie counted using My Fitness Pal.  We’ll see how this goes.

I don’t plan on turning this into an onslaught of food pics so don’t worry.  Speaking of pictures, my Instagram account has been hacked and I’m having a struggle to regain access as my Facebook account is linked to my personal Instagram and not the Nerdgazzum one.